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This time, it's less serious, but I really don't feel like studying again. I don't have any paper today so I have the whole day to prepare for Chemistry tomorrow.

Chemistry has always been one of my worst subjects.

In secondary 3, I used to get B4s before it finally improved to B3 at the end of the year. In secondary 4, it started improving, I don't know why either. It soon became A2, and for prelims and O levels, I got A1! It's such a miracle.

Hopefully my Chemistry grade will improve this time. I got C for mid-year. Now, I'm aiming for B.

I think one of the reason why my grade is so bad now is because of my Chemistry teacher. Don't get it wrong though, he's not a bad teacher. In fact, he's really nice. I'm not blaming him. It's really my fault.

He's so nice that he doesn't care if you do tutorials or not. He asks questions during tutorials and if you didn't do, you would try not to make eye contact with the teacher. It's natural.

Of course, teachers are smart enough to guess. For other subject teachers, they purposely call those who didn't do tutorials, but my Chemistry teacher, Mr. Lim, does otherwise.

He doesn't call you if he knows you haven't done your work. Unless it's really basic and simple questions. Even then, I also don't know the answer. But, he'll give you a really obvious hint, already telling you the answer then you just kinda tell him what he hinted.

That is why, I DON'T DO MY TUTORIALS! Doing homework is one of the ways to learn and if you don't do, you don't learn. So naturally, I don't know much about Chemistry.

I always feel guilty about not doing Chemistry homework because Mr. Lim is so nice. I always tell myself not to let him down. But the thing is, I always do homework from the fiercer teachers first. If not, they'll scold you. I know Mr. Lim doesn't scold so in the end, I don't do.

Now, when I have to prepare for exams, I realise that there are so much stuff I never knew.

The exam is tomorrow and I really don't know what I should do. Really feel like giving up Chemistry. But this is not an option. Even if I can get A for the other 3 subjects and end up with a C or D for Chemistry, chances that I'll be chosen for the SMU accounting course are slim. Really slim.

In the end, I decided to study all the chapters. That's the best choice available now. I'll do my best and hope I don't let Mr. Lim down.

On my last Chemistry lecture assessment, Mr. Lim wrote on my paper "Must try harder". He knows that I'm one of the weaker students but doesn't embarrass me by asking me questions during lesson.

I felt really bad and on the Teachers' Day card that my class gave him, I told him that I promise to try harder.

So, I had to keep my promise to him. I felt really, really, really bad! How can I give up now and let him down again?! I should at least try my best. Then even if I don't do well, I know that I've tried.

So, Mr. Lim, I promise that I'll try harder. I'll try harder next year too and do well for A levels. I promise!!!