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After school today, Kaijun and I planned to go out. The last time we went out was before promos and went to Marina Square to bowl and play pool. That was quite a long time ago.

VJ's open house was the next day so we had some preparation to do. After moving the canteen table to our booth and carrying the super heavy plants, we finally went out.

Melissa was with us because she was helping to set up the booth. In the end, all 3 of us took bus to Bedok interchange. I didn't tell Melissa that I was going out with Kaijun though so I guess she didn't know. She left for home while we went to the MRT station.

Then, the problem came. We had to decide where to go. I suggested going to Bugis or Orchard because I kinda wanted to watch a movie. I didn't tell him that I wanted to watch movie though.

I seriously didn't want to go to Suntec City and Marina Square again. It was quite boring since we went there the last time. I think my hint was quite obvious. When we were walking out of school, I told him that we should go to Bedok interchange. That meant that I didn't want to take the direct bus to Suntec. Then when we decided where to go, I didn't suggest going to Suntec. Instead, I insisted on going elsewhere twice! Maybe my "hints" weren't obvious enough to him.

In the end, he said "let's do our usual stuff". In order words, go bowling at Suntec City and Marina Square! What?! We go bowling every single time we go out together and we went to Suntec City for like how many times already?! Ahh... I didn't know what to say because I wasn't sure what we could do somewhere else either.

So, we went to Long John Silver's to have lunch. It was nice because I was just craving for it. Then, like our usual routine, we went bowling, 3 games each.

The funny thing is, I met my senior class at the bowling alley! Why so coincidental? The last time we went to Suntec, we almost bumped into my parents. Now it's my senior class. They were having a class outing.

The game didn't go quite well. I didn't play well and was bored. Always go bowling... Haiz.

After the 3 games, we didn't know what else to do. I bet if we weren't in our uniforms, we would have gone to play pool. So, luckily for us, we were in uniforms.

The thing is, everytime we go out, we have to do something. We can't just walk around or eat and have a long talk. We always have to doing something, like bowling, playing pool, bowling, and bowling! And that means spending lots of money too... Usually, I spend about $20 whenever we go out. If that's the case, I think we can only go out once a month since I need time to save up, only to blow all of it on some boring bowling game!

Actually I know I can't really blame Kaijun. After all, I'm the first girl he's gone out with, and it's the same with me. So maybe we're both not that experienced yet. It may be partly my fault too.

But, the important thing is, I feel like I don't miss him or anything although the last time we met was almost 1 month ago. Life goes on as normal for me. I'm beginning to realise that I don't really like him. Not dislike him as a friend, but in the other way. Maybe I was just excited at the possibility of having a boyfriend when we first started, that's why I didn't turn him down when he asked me out initially. I don't know.

Actually, he's not really the type that I can see myself having a relationship with. I don't ever refer to him as my boyfriend yet! He's nice and funny and a great friend, so maybe we should just remain as friends. Besides, he's going off to army next year so we'll be seeing less of one another.

Seriously, if he didn't give me the ring for my birthday, I wouldn't be sure if he was interested or not! I think I sorta made up my mind already. Unless he does something that really touches me or changes my mind, I'll tell him that we should just be friends. But I'll tell him after his A levels. Don't wanna distract him or anything.

Haiz. All this stuff is getting me confused. Maybe I'm just not ready. I'll just take my time and wait till I feel I'm better prepared.

hello charlynn, sorry that time we didnt go out. we go out during holidays ok? see u soon.

sounds kind of confusing.. hee.. my friends also complain that their bf does not do anythign interesting.

anyway.. good luck ^-^

*dunno wat am i rumbling about*

Lujia: Ok! We'll go out to play after PW!!! Can't wait for it to end!

Maevbe: Thanks! =)

hmmm.. maybe you should tell him what you want to do instead of giving hints. we guys can be thick-headed sometimes..

ok... Thanks =)

hihi char! wow u are so open in ur blog. i wouldn't talk abt such stuff in my blog. u go girl!!!=p
naughty ger nv tell me! make me sound like some light bulb!!! :(

this is just my opinion. so dun take it 2 seriously.
i could tell abt u and kai jun. (6th sense) but i dun see anythg coming out of tt relationship. u are a fun loving ger tt loves 2 talk and joke around with ppl. so find a guy tt u can joke and talk abt the crappiest stuff. find a guy tt u can talk for hours but nv get bored. he MUST be romanic cos u are such a sucker for romantic comedies!! =p


loving u always,
melissa =p

PS if u dun miss him every day or at least every week, you are nt in love. but then again i'm no exp in such stuff