ICE.COLD.COFFEE

It's the second day of landscaping and I'm damn frustrated today.

I went to school at 1pm and there was nothing to do. Nothing at all!

Ryan went out to get plants and there was a lady who was in charge of the workers.

Worse still, I didn't have any company. Everyone was busy doing their stuff and I just stood there, watching them. Alone.

So, I decided to go to the concourse and take a seat. I wasn't sure what I was doing. I just didn't want to look like an idiot just standing there and not doing anything.

I spent an hour listening to music on my MP3 and deleting lots of old messages on my phone. After that, I decided I should just go back.

I was so frustrated that I cried on the way home. Maybe it was also because I was feeling down today so the whole thing just made be explode.

What I was frustrated is that the teacher in charge told me that we only needed to come back for 2 meetings during the holidays. I planned 3, in case we had more stuff to do.

In the end, she wants us to come back so many times! The current record and 6 times, and still counting...

Does she think that I have so much time? My holiday is for me to rest, and to study, if I want to.

I went to school yesterday and she was so persistent that I come today as well. I told her I had training and the time wasn't comfirmed yet so I didn't know when I was available.

In the end, I didn't go for training, but it wasn't because of Horticulture. It was something else.

nyway, I decided to go to school and guess what, there wasn't anything to do. And the worse thing is, my stupid teacher wasn't even there!

She said she would come today. Or maybe she did, she just left super early.

Whatever it was, I was so fed up I decided to go home.

And somehow, I feel really bad wasting money on bus fare. It costs almost $2 for me to go to school and back, and my Mum pays for all my bus fare. It's like I keep going out and wasting money, then make her pay for it. I know it may seem like a small deal, but it's important to me.

I already had a day of doing almost nothing yesterday and when Ryan's friends came to visit him, I had to smile nicely and pretend I wasn't bored. Inside, I was cursing like mad.

If I stayed today, I think I would have cursed out loud.

Anyway, this thing is killing me. I thought it would be fun. Then I would decide to go down on Friday when I'm free. But now, no way am I going again. Not even if the stupid teacher paid me!

omg! i hate politics in horti!
the teacher in charge can be a wee bit frustrating at times!!!
for the bbq thingy, she didnt even ask horti members when they are free. she just chose a date tt she is free. its like inviting herself lor!!!
i was like real exasperated and irritated inside, AND i had to smile sweetly and cheerfully and nod to everythg she says.

i'm so glad tt i haf attachments from 8am to 6pm for like 5 weeks.
no horti meetings so shiok =p