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I realised that I having been blogging about my studies these few days, so I'm just here to bore all you people out there today. Hah! :)

For the past few days, I've been going to school everyday even though I have no lessons. From 8am to 5pm everyday, I study either at the concourse or in the library. With time for lunch and about 1 hour to read newspaper everyday. Seems like a healthy study timetable to me!

And the best part is, I get to go home with a feeling of satisfaction from studying so much everyday. Haha... :D

I really can't study at home these few days. I get distracted by the slightest things and keep walking to the fridge to peek inside. I tell you, I can already feel that I'm getting fat. I eat my normal meals everyday, and just plonk myself on the chair to study. How to not gain weight like that?

Anyway, I feel that I've studied harder for prelims than how I'm studying for A's now. It was the same with O's. It's actually a lot relaxing than prelims, though this exam is really way important. Weird... Haha...

GP is on Thursday, and I'm sure that when the exams start, it'll all be over in a blink of an eye. By that time, we'll have to study day and night that it'll get really quite stressful. So right now, I better study more so that I can sleep more during the exam period. I don't want to turn into a panda then. Ha...

And good luck to everyone for the exams! All the best! :)

I had Econs S yesterday. A super long lesson to go through just 1 essay question. Some parts were still quite interesting though. Then I had lunch with Sally. I had fish and chips. Haven't eaten that for so long that I almost forgot there was fish and chips!

Anyway, I admit that I didn't really like Sally much in the past. I didn't dislike her, I just didn't like her. But after so many Econs S lessons, I found that she's really quite nice after all. :)

I went to school today to study. And as usual, I studied at the concourse. My Auntie who's working in VJ as a teacher saw me and gave me a big bar of Toblerone chocolate with a little note. So sweet right!

Today was quite a productive day. I studied most of what I wanted to cover.

But, there was something that totally ruined my day. While I was reading newspapers in the library, I received a phonecall from a withheld number. It sounded like a Malay or Indian guy, and he knew my name! He said he was ...'s friend. I didn't hear properly who. Then he said something really disturbing. I'm not going to type it out here cos it's quite vulgar. I just kept quiet. Then after a pause, I asked, "who are you?". The person didn't reply immediately so I just hung up.

I got so disgusted! Curse that bloody asshole! If I weren't in the library where it was so quiet that everyone could hear me talk, I would have held on to the phone call for a while longer and try to find out who it was. And probably shout some vulgarities into his face too. IDIOT, and not to forget PERVERTIC! SIAO!

He deserves to be struck by lightning!

I went to Conrad to get my bankbook photocopied today because I didn't bring it yesterday. Actually I don't know why they need to photocopy it. I already wrote my account number on the form. Did they think that I would be so careless as to write wrongly and not check?

I saw this girl wearing a pair of earrings that I also had. And she took the same bus as me, from the same bus stop to Tampines interchange.

Anyway, I went down to Conrad at 3pm. I just handed the photocopy to Virginia and that was all.

I went to walk walk at Marina Square since I didn't feel like studying. I bought a bag charm and hung it on my NIKE bag. Nice!

There were some people that I kept seeing. Like I would see this group of people in one shop, then after a while, I would see them again at another shop.

At around 5, I walked to Citilink, since I was taking the MRT. I was also window shopping on the way. Or rather, it wasn't window shopping. It was more of loitering. How hard is it to accidentally bump into someone there? Ahhh, you probably won't get what I'm trying to say, or who I'm trying to meet. I don't really know why I was doing that either. I had no idea what time that person would be there. Whatever...

Until around 5.30pm, I decided that I would go back. I took the train, and guess who I saw?

Nope, it wasn't the person I was hoping to bump into. It was that girl that took the same bus as me from my bus stop. I didn't even knew she came to City Hall, and it's so coincidental that we would take the same train back. I think she recognised me.

Anyway, my point is, I keep meeting people that I have no intention of meeting. But when I try to look for someone, all the more I can't find that person.

It's quite irritating. But then again, I think I was really silly to do that.

I'm happy because I studied a whole lot of Econs today. About more than half of the whole Econs syllabus. Yay!

When I reached school today, it was so empty! I was wondering what happened to everyone. Then I found out from Ngang Ju that it was the Deepavali holiday on Saturday being carried forward. Those lucky year 1s have no lesson. But luckily the school was open so I didn't go there for nothing.

I saw Jasmine studying there too.

There was a very nice studying environment at the concourse. Everyone was just busy studying their stuff. Not too many people too, so it was quite quiet and pleasant.

Me and Jasmine sat at different tables though, cos we didn't want to disturb each other. But we ate lunch and went to 7/11 together. Haven't talked to her for very long already. I was quite sian-ed from studying so much that I wasn't in a mood to talk too much.

Later, I went down to Conrad at 5pm. Turns out that other than handing in the form, I needed to bring my bank book to photocopy as well. So I'll have to go back again tomorrow.

By the way, if you're wondering, I didn't meet X today. I know what I'm going to say may be quite shocking, but it's true: I've almost forgotten how X looks like.

Anyway, I think the infatuation is dying down, and that's good too. At least I can study better like that. But I'm sure that if he asks to meet up after A's, I'll probably like him again, since he's such a nice guy.

I know I'm super fickle. I get crushes on different guys all the time. And these feelings fade real quick too. I guess that's why I never believe in long-distance relationships. Whatever it is, I'll just take things as they come. I'm too busy studying to think about all this now.

I'm really mentally drained after studying so much today. And also quite sian-ed about having to keep going back to Conrad to hand in those little things. I'm just going to relax the rest of the evening and go to bed after watching tv.

By the way, Mun Bbun called just now. He just likes to ask about how I am, etc... It was nice talking to him. It actually lifted my spirits.

Yup, so that's all for today. I'm going to relax! :)

This whole incident has really distracted me from my studies.

After Virginia called me on Thursday, I got so excited that I couldn't study for the rest of the afternoon. Then on Friday, I woke up late, and went for Econs S, and barely studied the whole day. Yesterday I went out with my family. Saturday's my rest day, so I don't study. (By the way, I went to some sale and bought 2 FOX shirts for $5 each! What a steal!) Ok, back to the problem...

The thing is, not studying hard for these few days is making me lose my momentum to study. I'm trying to hang on to those little bits of momentum I still have and hope to go back to intensive studying by this evening. If not, I'm so dead by the time A's are here.

All this distraction gave me a little thought that maybe I don't have to study so hard. I should just, you know, play all I want, and think about you-know-who as much as I want, and in essence, just follow my heart! Constantly reminding myself to study is sucking the fun out of everything.

But then, I know I can't stop studying now. I've been studying hard for so long already! If I give up now, I'll surely blame myself forever... I've got to buck up!

JIAYOU CHARLYNN!

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The spirit of studying is finally revived! Ok, I shall go study now... Haha... :)

...about X.

I tell you, the more I think, the more I like him.

Shhh... That's a secret. I feel so paiseh saying that. I'm trying to act as if I don't care if he calls or not, but that's not true. I do care.

I met Kimberly for lunch today before we went for Econs S and I told her about everything. We were both giggling like little girls. And she was quite shocked that I didn't know his name. Actually I'm quite surprised that I didn't look at his name tag at all the whole evening! So stupid of me.

Last night, he asked if he could call me after exams. The thing is, there's still one whole month to go to the end of exams! Ahhh...

Last night, I didn't like him that much yet. Probably still in a little shock that he asked for my number. But after thinking through this (a lot!), I figured that he's quite a nice guy after all.

Actually, I won't be surprised if he doesn't call back. I seemed like I wasn't interested at all yesterday.

I'm going back to Conrad on Monday to hand in a form. I'm planning to go down at about 5, and hopefully I'll be able to bump into him. Crossing my fingers!

I tell you, the Conrad pastry kitchen one sure does!

Virginia called me at about 3pm today to say that she needed an urgent part-timer to work in the pastry ktichen. So I agreed to take on the job since I needed a "break" from studying anyway. It was from 6pm to 11pm. I was studying in the VJ library then.

The only thing that was holding me back was that I wouldn't be able to watch gong ye man wang fei (channel U, 7pm). It's such a nice, nice, nice, nice, nice show!!! And today's episode is very exciting! I've never been so in love with any tv show before. I look forward to the show every single day! It's my first Korean drama by the way, and I'm absolutely hooked! When I decided to take the job, I could feel my heart ache when I couldn't watch the show...

Oh well, I asked Kimberly to tell me the story tomorrow. Though it won't be the same, and no eye candy too. Haiz... But anyway, today's work was quite interesting. You'll find out for youself as I'm going to tell you about it now.

I met Ah Hau in the canteen during dinner. We talked a bit, and he found out that he got me and Zhang Lan mixed up. All those smses that we sent each other, he thought they were from Zhang Lan. I was really shocked. Well, at least now he knows.

While we were eating, another guy from the pastry kitchen joined us. I haven't seen him before. He's Edwin. Cute guy. Haha...

A lot of people in the pastry kitchen have changed. The only people that I know who are still working there are Chef Rosli, Chef Steven, Ah Ming, Virginia, Kuok I and Ah Hau. Too bad Kuok I worked the morning shift today. Didn't get to see him. And when Chef Steven saw me, he asked me to go work for them after A's! Haha... I'm very happy though I haven't promised anything yet.

My first job was to dip some long cookies in chocolate. Then, before I finished, I was asked to go up to Oscar's with Mei Yi (I think that's her name). I was in charge of the deserts bar, which included the ice cream counter, crepe and waffle section. All I had to do was to make crepes, waffles and scoop ice cream. Pretty easy.

Mei Yi taught me some stuff, then she went down. I was left there with no one I knew! Then, I felt very awkward, and I kept thinking that things would have been much better if I had just stayed home and watched tv.

Luckily, there was another chef that was quite friendly. I don't know his name. Let's call him X for now. He would just come over and talk a little, then talk to the other chef in charge of the seafood and stuff.

I talked with X quite a bit, and it made me feel much, much better, and less awkward. It's like everything seems so foreign to me, then there's someone to take care of me. Feels nice.

After talking a while, X asked me for my phone number! Before that, he was talking about playing badminton, and asked me if I played. So after he asked for my number, I asked "for what?". I forgot his reply, I think it had something to do with badminton. But the way he asked for my number was very subtle. I don't really know how to describe it, but it just seemed to flow with our conversation very well.

I wrote it in his notebook. And ya, I gave my real number. Actually, I don't know what to expect. You know what it means when a guy asks for your number right? Then I always don't know what to do in such situations, so I usually do as I'm told. While I was writing my number, thoughts of "accidentally" writing the wrong number kept flashing through my mind.

The rest of the evening was rather routine. I would stand at the counter with mostly nothing to do (there were so few customers since it was a Thursday evening), X would come talk once in a while, I would talk to the seafood chef a little, then make a few crepes and waffles here and there, and scoop some ice cream. That's about it. My crepe making skills got much better after one of the head chef came over and taught me how to do it. And once in a while, one of the waiter would come over and make fun of me and X. I think everyone could tell that he was getting close. I was rather embarrassed actually. I never meant for it to be like that.

At the end of the day, Mei Yi came up to keep all the stuff with me. Almost all the food displayed on the buffet table was thrown away! So wasteful! And they were all very nice food indeed. So next time when you go for a buffet, just eat your fill. Don't feel paiseh to take more. Cos we would rather let you eat it than throw it away.

After my work was done, I said bye to the pastry kitchen people and went to sign out at security. I worked for 6pm to 11pm, for 5 hours and got $30 of pay. :)

Miraculously, after I signed out at security, X was there too. I didn't see him before I signed out, then after a few minutes, he was right behind me, all ready to go. What a coincidence! I was a little shocked to see him there.

We walked to the MRT together and talked along the way. Honestly, I'm a very boring person. If you asked me a question, I would just give a simple answer and stop right there (unless I'm with very good friends). Then there would be nothing else to talk about. It was the same with X. Just that he had lots of stuff to talk about. It was really very nice talking to him indeed. I didn't have to think much of stuff to say to fill in the silent gaps in between. He would keep asking questions about me, but not in a interrogating kind of way. Amazing how he does it.

Along the way, he asked if I had a boyfriend. I said no. We talked a little more. Then when it was time to go our separate ways at the MRT station, he asked if he could call me after the exams. I said ok. I'm surprised I did. I didn't know what else to say, he was so nice. He stretched out his hand for a handshake and I shook it.

I tell you, he's a super nice guy. A really average guy that feels so comfortable to be with.

But there's something I'm unsure of. We barely got to know each other when he asked for my number. I think that when strangers know so little about each other, just like when we first met, it's probably too early to even have a little fondness for another person right? Like the only thing that you can judge me by is my looks since you don't even know my character yet. The thing is, I don't have looks! Coincidentally, I lost my comb today, and my hair was like anyhow tucked under the hat (the tall chef's hat. cool right?! I mean the hat, not my hair) , and I was having a big pimple on my nose, and back to the topic, the uniform really made me (not just me, it's everybody) look fat.

So what on earth prompted him to ask for my number?

I have no idea.

Maybe I just feel too insecure about myself.

Anyway, the thing is, he's got my number, I don't have his. It's all up to whether he calls or not.

I went to Vivocity!!!

The place is super big, and with loads of shops! Even though only 60% of the shops are open, there's still a gread load of stuff to see. Besides, a lot of shops are having 15% or 20% opening discounts!

It really feels like a little city there. There's almost everything. Plus, there are some people dressed up as traffic police to give directions, and some dressed in bright yellow suits, zipping aroung on some scooter thing, shouting "welcome to Vivocity!" So cute!

I wanted to look for my bag, the one the girls are going to buy for my birthday. So me and my Mum were trying to look for the Nike (bags) shop. After walking to so many places, I finally realised that I was looking at the wrong place on the map in the first place! It was so irritating that we took so long to find the shop. So, if you ever go there, make sure to get your pretty map from the information counter. It really helps a lot.

The Nike (bags) shop was really small. But I managed to find a bag that I like. A black hand carried one. At first, when I saw the exactly same bag in another shop, I didn't want to buy it because it was so black. It was completely black. But, the sales at the Nike shop told me that black would make it easy to maintain, won't get dirty so easily. And I thought it was very true, so I decided to get it.

Actually, it's not what I had in mind for my birthday present. Remember me going gaga over that black and gold Puma bag? And the brown Adidas bag? In comparison, this one was quite plain. But, the fact that it was all black made it quite classy, and since it's black, it may never get dirty, and I can use it forever! Yay! Durability over appearance. Besides, my excitement for all those colourful bags may die down once newer and more colourful ones come out. So, I know that this black one will stay with me for a long, long time. Sometimes I hate myself for being so rational. Haha...

Overall, there are lots of shops there. Clothes, bags, earrings... All those stuff that I love to look at! I promise that I'll go there again after A's and shop till I drop! :)

PS. By the way, I got distinction for Econs S! Woohoo! Couldn't blog that on Thursday because some how I couldn't log into Blogger. :)

The farewell assembly today was damn interesting, funny and of course, super emotional.

Since the theme of this year's year 1 orientation was superheros, our emcees for today were batman and yellow ranger. They were so silly and funny la!

There were performances by house comm, the teachers (I thought the belly dancing part was fantastic!) and some tribute to Mrs Chan. The last part when we sang the Victorian anthem was the most touching . Probably our last time too. Then we had mass dance which we almost forgot all the steps!

By the way, Mrs Chan would be leaving VJ too. She's being posted to MOE. I can tell that she managed the school well, though I don't really like her that much personally. She can be quite straightforward in her comments and I can tell that she is interested only in people who are of use to her. Like when I went with Mrs Chuah and Ryan to meet her about landscaping the school area, she only talked to Ryan. And I could sense that the whole conversation was full of hypocrisy. Like the "oh-how-I-like-you-so-much-but-actually-i-don't" kind of presence. From the both of them. Super fake la!

Oh well, but I must admit that she was a good principal. I'm afraid that the new principal won't tolerate the craziness in VJ, and give us our frequent full days. Then, the VJ spirit could really be changed. Anyway, the year 2s are leaving too, so it doesn't really affect me.

After farewell assembly, we had CT session to get our top 3 achievements and testimonial drafts. We all had free ice cream and chocolates sponsored! Haha... So nice! As our farewell gift from the juniors, all the year 2s got a nice ring as a souvenir. It has VJC engraved on the outside and nil sine laboure on the inside. Damn cool!

At the end of CT session, Timothy said "class stand" and we said "thank you Mrs Leong". She smirked. We don't respect Mrs Leong because we feel that she isn't a good teacher and is also an irresponsible CT. I don't think she's that bad, or dislike her as much as the others claim to though.

Later, we had Chemistry make up lesson. Because Mr Lim is on reservis, we have a relief teacher, Mr Chan. We were all so worried initially because our relief teacher last year was terrible. We were afraid our grades would be afftected since A's were coming soon. But luckily for us, Mr Chan is equally good, if not better than Mr Lim.

The weird thing about Mr Chan is that he likes to wear shirts with very loud prints, and his shirt is always buttoned one button too low. Haha... Quite weird, but I've got to say that some of his clothes actually look nice despite them being too attention grabbing. Tell you a secret, new guy teachers always make me more interested in the subject. Haha... Shhh... Don't tell anyone.

After that, we all went to see Li Yue, Joanne and Hao Quan's art pieces before going for class lunch at Seoul Garden at Taka. I think this is the most successful class outing ever. 20 people out of 25 turned up. Yay!

The food was ok. My table had Li Yue, Sheryl and Zhang Lan, and Jasmine and Joanne in the next table. We took loads of photos, and the guys made silly gay poses too. GAY!!!

Sheryl ate so, so much, despite her small size. I think she ate even more than Wei Yang! And she was playing with the food, cooking the beef in such a funny way.

My favourite was the chocolate ice cream. Yum yum!

We ate from 2pm to 5pm, and I was bloated by that time. Most of the guys went to watch movie while me, Jasmine, Sheryl, Li Yue and Zhang Lan went shopping. We also went to Cineleisure to take neoprint!

On our way to the MRT station, a lady came up to us to ask for donations. Since it was only $2, I decided to donate. But, just as I was taking out the money, I dropped a 10 cent coin and it rolled onto the road. I said never mind, but the lasy went ahead to pick it up! The road was super busy and the coin was at the edge of the road. All of us got such a big shock because she could have been run down by a car had she been 10cm further out into the road! It was so scary!

The MRT was super crowded, we squeezed our way in and it was a very stuffy and uncomfortable ride.

Oh well, this marks the official last day of school. It's been a great day, so much fun in school and with friends. I wish JC life wouldn't have to end. But it's time to start mugging for the A's... Jiayou!!! :)

I haven't been blogging quite as often as I did in the past cos I'm trying not to be too dependent on blogging. Think I'm becoming a little, just a little teeny weeny little bit more introverted because I'd rather talk to the computer than to people. Haha... Besides, blogging sometimes seems like writing a short essay, no time la. So many things to study, so much homework to do, I would rather sleep if I had time.

I haven't exactly started intensive studying yet. Momentum's building up, but not there yet...

Yesterday was my Mummy's birthday and I went to Parkway to buy a cake from Swissbake. The cake's called chocolate romance. Super yummy! Also bought a super nice card from Print for Shuwen. It's her birthday tomorrow (in a few minutes...).

Anyway, while thinking what to write for Shuwen's card, it suddenly dawned on me that our friendship is just so fantastic. We've been best friends since primary 3... or is it 4? Oops... And throughout, we've been able to keep our friendship strong and going. Though we don't go out very often, and sometimes see one another for only once a year (that's really little for best friends!), we always keep in touch through sms.

She's just such a true friend and whenever I have problems, I can tell her because I know it won't affect the way she looks at me at all. There was once in secondary school that I forgot to bring my thermometer during the SARS period and had to buy one for $8. Somehow, I got so depressed about that (and even cried!) and I told her about it. She never fails to dispense good advice and encourage me.

Shuwen is just a wonderful friend that I never think of as being a bad person or a hypocrite. I love her so much!

Anyway, I also remember that in primary school, we all used to write "forever friends" in each others' autograph books. Then, I didn't really mean it when I wrote it. But today, I wrote it in Shuwen's birthday card and I can seriously see us as being friends forever! I'm just so glad that she's my friend.

I posted the card this afternoon, after 5pm, so it'll probably reach her a day late...

On another note, tomorrow is the official last day of lessons. Friday is farewell assembly. It's going to be the last time that we wear uniforms to school for lessons! I want to wear uniform to university... It's such a bother thinking of what to wear everyday.

My prelim results are:
Maths: A
Physics: B
Econs: C
Chemistry: D
GP: B4
Maths S: merit
Econs S: we haven't get all our papers yet

Nice grades huh? ABCD. Haha... Not exactly what I was aiming for. I better do much better for A's!

My eyes are so irrtated by the haze, they're so itchy!

STUPID HAZE!

STUPID HAZE!

STUPID HAZE!

PSI is about 129 now. Damn it!

I went swimming with Janice yesterday. The last time we both swam was the Nationals! Haha... I haven't swam for so long that I seriously felt an itch to swim so much.

She was late and I went in first to wait for her. The life guard there was very friendly. :)

When she finally came, she changed and went to swim.

All in all, we swam 1km (20 laps). It's really little considering that we always swim more than 2km each training. But our stamina went down quite considerably.

After swimming, my arms and legs were aching a little... But, it felt so good so swim again.

Me and Janice swam one lap, talk a bit, swim another lap, talk some more and swim then talk somemore... Haha... So nice to catch up with her.

Hope we can swim again another day!

By the way, I think I'll be getting my Econs S results tomorrow. Really excited and worried at the same time. I got all my prelim results already, except for Econs and Econs S papers. Econs teachers are so inefficient. And to think they always talk about productive and allocative efficiency. Ha! :)