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I just received an email from PSC last night that my grades have qualified me for the scholarship!

My first reaction was that I'm super, super happy. Later, I felt kinda angry. Know why?

Cos they had to take so long to decide that I qualified for the scholarship, that I already sent in my applications to the other scholarhip organisations, and had to write more than 5 essays about myself, not to forget I had to take 2 days of leave to write them. Irritating! Couldn't they have told me earlier?

Anyway, I feel more happy than angry. I'm glad that they still want me despite my one merit and one ungraded S papers results.

I once heard from a teacher that it's often the case where the same few students will receive multiple scholarship offers, while the others won't even get one. Sure feels good to know that I'm probably in the top section. Ha!

I'm a little confused as to whether I really, really want the scholarship though. I think I'll probably take it, but I'm afraid of all the expectations that come with it. Their Management Associates Programme sounds so impressive that they'll groom you to become a future leader and all, but I'm really not sure if I'm up to it. That's why I'm scared.

It's not that I don't have confidence in myself though. I think I can I go through it and come out much better. It's just the thought of that little possibility that I might not make it that scares me.

But, I just have to say that I'm glad I got the scholarship. At least I can relax a lot more. I'm going to call the PSC lady tomorrow to confirm some things before I really decide if I'm going to sign on the dotted line.

I'm happy! Woohoo! :)